Random thoughts of an anonymous man
"Remember when you see a man at the top of a mountain, he didn't fall there."
I am struggling a bit with my job. Not struggling in the traditional sense of trying to keep up or being overwhelmed, but rather in being underwhelmed and bored. As an individual my goal has always been continuous growth and learning. As a result of this goal if I am not growing and learning I become bored and somewhat depressed. I have been spinning my wheels for sometime now and the urge to move on has increased. I wonder after 6 1/2 years if it is time to move on? That is where I find myself this morning.... Contemplating. I have so much to offer and so much want to achieve that I feel like I am doing myself a disservice procrastinating when I know what I have to do. Wish me luck in reaching peace with my decision, because it is one that is likely to change my life.
Today feels nice. The cold is starting to disperse and I can once again smell life in the air. Have you ever noticed how lifeless and sterile the air feels when bitter cold takes hold? When the warm air returns it is almost like the earth is exhaling, relaxing. Things just feel better. Like a nice glass of wine after a long day at work. Rosy.... warm.... happy.
Cold. That is the word of the day. Or is it week? It is way to damned cold. Hard to work with cold fingers and toes. Maybe we will get back above the freezing mark today... This is about the time of year when I start longing for spring. It can't be that much longer can it?
It looks as those the Huygens probe has safely landed on Saturn's moon, Titan. Amazing. Within the hour we should start seeing photographs of a completely alien landscape. Call me a geek, but the news has me pretty excited. At least there is finally some good news to report in this world that seems to be consumed with war and fascination with what acts Michael Jackson "allegedly" committed with underage boys.
I am officially underway with my transformation. I forgot how much I enjoyed that "high" following a good workout. I should be up to par with my former self within three weeks. I can tell from the soreness that I have accurately identified the areas that need the most improvement. I am considering setting a new goal for myself.... I think I would like to try and compete in a biathalon. Would say triathalon, but I really don't enjoy swimming. The next few weeks should set the stage for which direction I will take. Wish me luck.
Good news! Apple just unveiled a new "low" cost mac. Hopefully this will make it easier for people to get exposure to the mac system and maybe one step closer to the downfall of the terrible products that microsoft put on the market.
It all begins again today. I begin rebuilding my body and everything else about myself today. Time to regain direction and purpose and start moving ahead. I am anxious and ready to get started.
Slow down, my brother, your life is passing fast
Will you remember all these scenes that you've passed
So long, so long
Speeding past sunset, blurring from town to town
Faces I forget, hotels all look the same
Worn down the knuckle too far
So long, so long
Lost are your colors, now life's in black and white
Steals from a movie, this life's a trick of the light
Worn down the knuckle too far
Worn down
City of strangers, you seem so tired to me
Don't think I'll stay here, you don't seem friendly
I'll keep on moving, searching for peace of mind
Rivers unwinding maybe I'll find it this time
So long, so long
So long
Live from my suitcase, my life's within my hands
Sleep in a strange bed, hometown's a foreign land
Down, the knuckle too far
I'm so alone tonight
My bed feels larger than when I was small
Lost in memories, lost in all the sheets and all old pillows
So alone tonight, miss you more than I will let you know
Miss the outline of your back, miss you breathing down my neck
All out to get you, once again, they're all out to get you, once again
Insecure, what ya gonna do
Feel so small, they could step on you
Called you up, answer machine, when the human touch
Is what I need, what I need is you, I need you
Looked in the mirror, I don't know who I am any more
The face is familiar, but the eyes, the eyes give it all away
They're all out to get you, once again, they're all out to get you
Here they come again
Insecure, what ya gonna do
Feel so small, they could step on you
Called you up, answer machine, when the human touch
Is what I need, what I need is you
Let me breathe, if you'd let me breathe
They're all out to get you, once again, they're all out to get you
