Random thoughts of an anonymous man
Well I am back in the orifice for a day before finishing off the remainder of my vacation. Feels kind of strange to be back after just a week. Not bad, just strange. I was starting to get ansy at home. I don't know if I could ever be unemployed or retired for any great length of time. I imagine I would develop some sort of hobby or another to occupy my time.... my work outs and running would be more intense... but I don't know. I need to have some goals or something similar. Need to have something to which I feel like I am contributing. Maybe that is why my recent efforts at the office have been so half assed. I always deliver as promise, but my efforts are mostly done grudgingly... Where I used to be a fine well oiled machine... I now seem to be burning much more energy forcing myself to do my everyday tasks. Uninspired and bored. Again it sounds like I am complaining, but I don't think that is what it is... Just stating the present. This is life. Earn your share, pay your taxes, contribute how you can, keep smiling with arms outstretched for the next thing life sends your way. It feels good to empty my head a bit. I wonder if others think about these things like I do. I seem hardwired to look at every situation in life from every angle. Things are never good/bad. There are differing shades of everything. Things appear one color from this angle only to change when viewed from another. What this says about me as a person I do not know. I never took any psychology classes and I never really care to. I don't need others to define my habits and processes and I don't really need to there interpretations of others to help me to deal with people. Observing your surroundings as you live will give you all the knowledge you need to deal with others..... How is that for a rambling bit of nonsense..... Guess I will leave things as they are. Time to figure out the happenings for another new year celebration. Maybe my thoughts will take root in somebody elses mind.. that makes me smile.
Ahhhhhhh. Just finished my final plate of food from the holiday office lunch..... Three and a half plates of barbecue.... I am a very satisfied man. Bonuses also came through today. It looks like we had a good year. Definitely have to give thanks for being so blessed. Life is definitely smiling on me. Enjoying the sounds of KCRW over i-tunes... At least if I can't be in the west I can absorb some of the sounds coming from that direction. The web is a wonderful thing. My post certainly does seem to have a prozac glow about it today.... Things are indeed very good. Maybe I will have more to complain about next time. Until then..... I am going to wear this smile as long as possible....
I think I officially have a new hobby (if it can be called that). I can not seem to get enough of reading others peoples thoughts. I believe it started when I began browsing moby.com on a regular basis and continued to grow after I discovered blogger.com. There is something that I enjoy about immersing myself in someone elses thoughts. I guess it is a way of stepping out of my life and my problems to listen/read someone elses.... I don't have much of anything to gripe about because life in most cases has been very fair to me. It is just refreshing to absorb new thoughts/opinions/points of view. I hope that I remain open and accepting of new ideas and views and never become a close minded type.... Life is much more interesting and liveable when you are not spending all of your energy and time trying to force your point of view on others. Maybe that will be my Christmas wish to the world, more tolerance of others. Look at things from others points of view and not just your own. Maybe it will be easier to understand them that way.
So it's ten more days to go until christmas..... The more I age the more I begin to despise the whole commercialized version of Christmas.... Everybody rushing around trying to find "the perfect gift" for everyone in your family and your extended family. It has become a holiday for the credit card companies. Another thing for people to worry about... I think we should just make the Christmas holiday more like Thanksgiving. Families get together and enjoy each others company, and if you are religious, give thanks to God....
But. I am not holding breath in having any hope that things will ever change. Money and material possessions are what make the world go round.... We work to get more "stuff". And as we are getting more stuff our entire life is passing us by. We lose huge chunks of time chasing after things that are not going to make a damn bit of difference to us twenty years down the road. I don't have a solution to the problem and I don't know if most people would even agree that it is a problem. It just seems sad that we spend our lives chasing after things that add very little to our growth as individuals.... whatever that means. Merry Christmas...
