Well I am back in the orifice for a day before finishing off the remainder of my vacation. Feels kind of strange to be back after just a week. Not bad, just strange. I was starting to get ansy at home. I don't know if I could ever be unemployed or retired for any great length of time. I imagine I would develop some sort of hobby or another to occupy my time.... my work outs and running would be more intense... but I don't know. I need to have some goals or something similar. Need to have something to which I feel like I am contributing. Maybe that is why my recent efforts at the office have been so half assed. I always deliver as promise, but my efforts are mostly done grudgingly... Where I used to be a fine well oiled machine... I now seem to be burning much more energy forcing myself to do my everyday tasks. Uninspired and bored. Again it sounds like I am complaining, but I don't think that is what it is... Just stating the present. This is life. Earn your share, pay your taxes, contribute how you can, keep smiling with arms outstretched for the next thing life sends your way. It feels good to empty my head a bit. I wonder if others think about these things like I do. I seem hardwired to look at every situation in life from every angle. Things are never good/bad. There are differing shades of everything. Things appear one color from this angle only to change when viewed from another. What this says about me as a person I do not know. I never took any psychology classes and I never really care to. I don't need others to define my habits and processes and I don't really need to there interpretations of others to help me to deal with people. Observing your surroundings as you live will give you all the knowledge you need to deal with others..... How is that for a rambling bit of nonsense..... Guess I will leave things as they are. Time to figure out the happenings for another new year celebration. Maybe my thoughts will take root in somebody elses mind.. that makes me smile.
