I guess I could be real pissed off about what happened to me, but it is hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I am seeing it all at once and it is too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that is about to burst. Then I remember to relax and stop trying to hold onto it, and it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.