Wow, has it really been over a month since I last wrote..... Time away from the office and vacation will do that I suppose. I have had a lot of time to think and over analyze this life of mine...."I will go in this way and I find my own way out... I won't tell you to stay....." So many things to say that they just kind of ooze out as rambling gibberish. "I will bring water.... why won't you ever be glad...."
Okay so I saw an "old" "friend" last week and man did it bring back memories. My brain kicked into overdrive with all of those what could have been, should have been thoughts that I have written about before. This "friend" that I mistreated, so much so that to this day I still feel like I am paying penance to the karma police. I wanted to say sorry and have always wanted to, but the opportunity just hasn't presented itself.... Actually that is kind of bullshit, I am just a pud. So anyhow life goes on and I carry these thoughts around and file them away with the rest of my feelings. Isn't that pathetic (or is it sad).... a person that goes through life hiding most every feeling and many thoughts so that they won't discomfort others... Not much of a way to live, but it is the road that I choose to take.... So that is it for today. I don't feel like spilling much more.
Send the pain below.....  ¶ 8:20 AM