Random thoughts of an anonymous man
I heard a great "saying" or passage today. "If you find yourself in a hole, stop digging". I have not heard a passage quite so true in a very very long time. Good advice for most anyone.
The sun is shining.
So Friday is finally here. Payday and at least a two day break from the orifice... or is that office. So I have a class on both Saturday and Sunday.... all day both days. Kind of blows the weekend huh? It is in an effort to get ahead and make a little bit of extra coin. So theoretically if I learn the material it will be worth the price of a weekend.
Did the softball thing last night. The team got run ruled, which translated, means we got our asses kicked. The run to seal our defeat was an out of the park home run. A bit comical to me really. Some of those guys take it so very seriously. Oh well. Whatever makes them smile.
Dear god it is unmercifully hot today. After a couple of months of below normal temps a heat index of 102 is not a welcome event. This is the reason I am such a big fan of fall and spring. Moderation is gooooood. As for the rest of the day, everything seems to be alright. I worked half a day yesterday before using a bit of sick time. Just went home and crashed. Guess my body was exhausted because when I crashed that was that. I woke up soaked and somewhat recovered. I suppose I am an aggressive sleeper if there is such a thing. So I have this softball deal tonight.... I despise softball/baseball and most everything associated with them. My wife thought it would be a good way for me to bond with the folks she works with... It has been nice getting to know the guys, but I really really do not enjoy softball. Too bad there is no local football team/league. Oh well. At least I am socializing I suppose and I am get a few sprints in every night. Raise the heart rate. Remind me that I am still alive. Okay so that is my therapy for the day. In summary - it's hot and softball sucks.
Yesterday felt good so we'll go for two in a row. Aging is a strange process... As a child and young adult life has a strange rosy glow about it. You are constantly discovering, hoping, planning.... there is always something around the corner... something to look forward to.... you have goals..... It seems as you grow older many of those moments fade away. Goals are accomplished, you begin to look forward to just limping through the rest of the week to make it to the weekend. The weekend is spent catching up on the things you could not finish during the week. A vicious cycle. I think maybe the key to happiness as an "adult" may be to just accept that this is life. This is the way things are.... Begin enjoying the small things. Quit hurrying, worrying, and just relax. Easier said than done unfortunately. My life right now is drained by this repressed anger and frustration that I can't seem to overcome. I have never been a fan of psychology so I have no idea what this means about me. I am sure there is a term or a diagnosis to describe me. Psychotic maybe? Who knows.... Someday I will find my cure. Until then I will continue to carry my load.
It's been a while again..... several months actually. Managed to survive the majority of another summer. This time of year drains me. Things have been good, things have been bad..... Thinking, feeling.... like I am stuck in low gear and some how I just can't seem to shift up.... Man... I sound pretty pathetic. Always sunshine and rainbows when I post. It feels good though, a bit of an outlet and from what I can remember that is the whole reason I started. Maybe I will smile and mean it for once.
